It feels pointless when prayer is getting nowhere, and yet I sense the Lord asking me to pray. It is just going through the motions, so why persist? Then I read –
Have mercy on me, O God, … wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.Psalm 51:1-2
Being unaware of any specific sin, there must be something God sees that I don’t.
What I acknowledge completely, is that the blockage itself has built up my resistance to spending time with God. And in this is sin, so,
Against you, you only, have I sinned … so you are … justified when you judge.Psalm 51:4
Jesus is drawing me back to himself.
you taught me wisdom in that secret place.Psalm 51:6
I long for these times when he teaches me wisdom.
Cleanse me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.Psalm 51:7
For this, I ask him to cleanse me. I am unaware of what I did to break the relationship, and isn’t that true with our most intimate relationships? However, I am aware of how I have backed away from him, and for that I need forgiveness.
Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity.Psalm 51:9
Thankfully, he is willing to hide his face from ALL my iniquity, not just the bits I am aware of and indeed, following this time of prayer, the blockage went.