I experience a thrill when the Lord opens his word to me. When the messages are few and far between, I wonder if the lack of experience points to failure. Yet –
I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there. Psalm 139:7-8
Even if I had deliberately run from him, I could never have escaped. The passage began –
O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I’m far away. Psalm 139:1-2
The Lord knows whether I allowed something between us. If I ask him to reveal where I went wrong, he can show me. He is concerned for the state of our relationship.
Sometimes that silence has another purpose. He asks if I will persist with him without that sensation of awe at his word I so enjoy.
I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night— but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you. Psalm 139:11
God sees through my darkness. All my fears and concerns are unveiled before him and we are left with the question, how will I behave when I feel like I am abandoned – though I am not?